My thesis has almost taken over my life… I need to break free and live!
Hey guys! Long time no see right? It feels like ages that I came down to this place called earth. My life has been a 9 to 5 hamster wheel with this freaking thesis that never seem to end, one headache after another, yet I’m trying to be positive and brave (even though life punches me in the face time to time). I try to study hard on weekdays in order to enjoy my weekends but man I’m so tired and just want to get this over with.
What’s new in my life you might ask?
Well truth to be told, nothing! I’m on the same damn spot! I did my internship last semester in hopes that it would help me land a job, NOPE! Everyone else are getting offers here and there but I got the losing ticket even though I did a good job, all the higher managers gave me compliments but no one gets hired at L’Oréal no matter how talented you are. I’m applying to other companies, no no no is all I get in the mails because we chose someone “better” so yeah that makes me sad. My thesis partner is being too harsh sometimes to me and is over ambitious and gives me bad conscious when I do something else beside study even if she “shows” that she is ok but she likes studying almost 24/7. Sure we worked hard and is still in good phase but I want to enjoy my last student life too. I have a limit, I’m not the 20-year-old Nad who could remember things by heart.
Other than that Daniel is still messing with my brain and heart!… Well one thing is still good! That I’m finally happy with who I am and I’ve come this far and in 2 months I’m graduating. From being dumped my ex on the day I started my Master’s to actually pass ALL my exams, score a great internship, meet amazing people, found love again, but most importantly finding MY IDENTITY, my happiness! That thought was out of the world few years ago. So I’m truly blessed about everything even though I getting through things right now. Thanks to my ex I’m here working my ass off instead of hiding in my room feeling sorry about myself. I’m counting my blessings and you guys have been amazing by supporting me.
I will try to post something soon! Love you guys ❤
– Hugs x heart –